guilt, mh (-) 

The most insidious thing is that this wicked way of thinking applies to my own self the same toxic behaviour that people do to others – that is, describing people’s actions as a result of their nature and not as a response to external input.

I try to understand why people behave in wrong ways without expressing moralistic judgements, but when I reflect on what I’ve done, I can’t help thinking that I make mistakes because I’m instrinsically bad, lazy, spoiled, selfish, etc.

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guilt, mh (-) 

I’ve internalized the mantra of “own your own mistakes” to the point that I stopped defending myself even when it is reasonable to say that my mistakes have been caused or influenced by external factors.

There’s always that thought, “I should have noticed, I should have double-checked”, which makes me feel guilty and give up on placing blame on whatever made me (or let me) make such mistake.

ph (neg) 

@shello Oh no! I wish you a quick recovery :chick_hugging:

I was already in the mood for simple, easy-to-make emojos, so I made one from my to-do list: :prince_symbol:

Unicode has the pentagon ⬟, the hexagon ⬢, the octagon ⯃, but why no heptagon?

So I decided to give this little fellow its own emojo: :heptagon:

At least I have a therapy session later in the day

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Jain's song “Oh Man” always brings me close to tears of joy.

I'm probably just projecting my experiences on to its lyrics, but when the protagonist of the song is told that he should accept his feelings and not resist them, and that they only show the good that is in his heart, I get reminded of the times in which someone did the same to me, giving me some of the most heartwarming moments of my life.

I don’t know if anybody noticed it, but the white cup, the grey background, the black coffee, and the purple shirt in my avatar are a very subtle nod to the ace flag, with additional brightness to make the picture nicer to the eye.

Sometimes I wonder whether I should make a website for me. For my photographs. For some blog posts and essays. Maybe to post my long threads, unrolled and easier to read.

My online activity is mostly limited to Mastodon, and the website would be just a supplement of what I usually write on my accounts. Just a place to expand what I already do here.

And it would also be a sandbox where I can experiment with web stuff…

fatphobia, Covid-19 

@Juju Yeah, that’s a very bad take, and it’s disheartening that such a way of thinking is widely accepted 😒

fatphobia, Covid-19 

@Juju I apologize for my previous toot. I thought that my wording was neutral, but I see that it was not clear enough. I will be more careful in the future.

anxiety in dreams, pandemic-adjacent 

As many other people, I’ve been having more unpleasant dreams lately. They’re not always nightmares in the proper sense, but the anxiety I’d like to escape from is seeping into them.

I wonder if it’s just that I remember my dreams more easily now that I am able to sleep in more frequently.

this instance is called, I am drinking coffee in my avatar, and here are all the coffee-related emojos I collected so far 

:cofepats: :coffee_mug: :coffeepot: :cupofcoffee: :mokapot: :blobcoffeeunamused: :chick_coffee_grumpy: :chick_coffee_wired: :blobcatcoffee: :blobcatbluecoffee: :blobcat_thisisfine: :blob_raccoon_coffee: :chick_coffee: :flan_coffee: :blobglarecoffee: :ablobcatcoffee: (and also :kofi:, does it count?)

I can’t wait to use bookmarks here on Mastodon 🔖

ph (-) 

@shello Ooof. I hope it goes away quickly!

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a private corner

A personal instance for a relaxing time.